Back in 2011, I was sitting at a bar in the Dallas airport. I had just come from a family reunion where I made a fool of myself by being drunk the entire time. I had several glasses of wine and some shots of vodka. I spilled a drink on someone, threw up a bunch, and overall made a huge ass of myself. I can only imagine how the family views me to this day.
It’s that time of year again. Where the sober curious dabble in recovery. Whether they make it the whole thirty days or carry it on past January and decide to live a life in recovery, all are welcome. This is the month where people, typically normies, abstain from drinking any type of drink containing alcohol. Giving up alcohol can be a tall order. Many people rely on it, whether they realize it...
It’s no secret that I’ve been to rehab. What some might not know is that I’ve been five times. And I worked as a tech for one of the facilities I went through. I’ve been through Florida, Tennessee, and Nevada. Some were great, others were absolutely horrible.
To say this year has been difficult would be putting it mildly. But the one thing I didn’t do was use. They say not to make major life decisions your first year, but I dove right into a lot of changes. I feel better for it though.
We came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity. ~Step Two I finally fucking finished Step Two… Took me long enough! It felt refreshing to finish another step though. This is how far I’ve gotten in the past and every time I would relapse. Now I get to move forward, clean and happy and productive. One thing I had to conquer was my inability to ask for help from...
You are not unique. Never have been, never will be. And that’s ok. This may seem like a harsh and insensitive thing to say to someone but hear me out. We all have things that are unique to us, like the way we look, the way we talk, the way we carry ourselves, our personal interests, etc. However, the struggles we live with are not unique to us. And that’s a good thing. I lived for a long time...
From time to time, it’s good to be reminded of ways we can stay clean. And to learn of other ways people stay clean. I have put together a list of the different things I implement in my life daily to make sure I’m doing the next right thing one day at a time. If you have any tips to stay clean please let me know in the comment section below.
This will be a short post, I just wanted to share where I was now that I have 90 days clean from all substances. 90 days ago, I was sitting in a treatment center for the fifth time. Hating myself worse than I ever have before.
This is the first in a four-part series I will cover throughout this year with affirmations for the different parts of my life that I use. Affirmations can be a strong and beautiful way to remind yourself of your worth.
“We are accepted and loved for who we are, not in spite of who we are.” Narcotics Anonymous
Being a part of something, especially something outside myself, is crucial for my recovery… For life in general, really