This feels a bit foreign to me. I haven’t written in quite some time. August of last year, to be exact. It’s been a long few months, and I haven’t really felt myself enough to write. But I had a sudden burst of inspiration. It’s not much, but I just wanted to touch base on my progress on several fronts.
A lot has happened in the last few months, the biggest of which is that I have moved states for several reasons. The biggest one is to be near my husband’s family, but other reasons are that I know the area we live in now very well after living here in my past, and it’s a blue state, so we feel more comfortable here being us. That was a challenging but good thing.
Since being here, though, I’ve had trouble keeping a job. The market I was trying to get into is very saturated here, which sucks because I really would like to work in the addiction treatment field again. Thankfully, though, as of the last few weeks, I have two jobs. It’s definitely caused some rift between my husband, but this will surely help that.
On my own recovery front, I have nearly 900 days clean, but I haven’t been tending to my recovery as I should. I haven’t been to a meeting since we moved here, back in December. I can’t really make an excuse for it; I just haven’t been. I obviously haven’t been working steps because I don’t have a sponsor since I’m not going to meetings. I think it’s taking a toll on a lot of parts of my life since I haven’t been putting my recovery first.
Although I have almost 900 days clean, how am I really living? Rhetorical, don’t answer… I need to get over my nerves and force myself to go. I know how I feel afterwards and would like to feel that again.
Well, that’s the big stuff in this check-in. Hopefully this jump-started my writing bug again and encouraged me to start prioritizing things in my life again.