Depression is a huge part of my mental illness diagnosis. It is a full half of my bipolar diagnosis. I also live with PTSD, anxiety, and mania. I got the full package of genetics right there. I have been so lost in my depression that many areas of my life have been getting worse. I do not want to do anything or go anywhere. Much less communicate with people either in person or through the phone.
2am. Woken up not knowing which way was up. My heart beating so fast I thought I was having a heart attack. I thought I was dying. I couldn’t breathe or move. I just sat there feeling everything all at once. Every emotion, physical pain, the entire world coming down on me. It’s such a surreal hard to explain thing.
We came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity. ~Step Two I finally fucking finished Step Two… Took me long enough! It felt refreshing to finish another step though. This is how far I’ve gotten in the past and every time I would relapse. Now I get to move forward, clean and happy and productive. One thing I had to conquer was my inability to ask for help from...
The Eightfold Path of Buddhism is part of the larger Four Noble Truths. It sets out all the focuses required to eventually attain enlightenment and nirvana. (However, I do not seek enlightenment, save that for another post) These practices lead to the end of suffering. Each of the eight elements have their own meaning and ways to attain each. The Four Noble Truths are broken into four parts;...
It’s no secret that one of the backbones of my life is music. It has the power to heal pieces of you that you might not have known it could. Three of the times I went to rehab it was a music-based program. I learned to use music to my advantage like listening to songs that match my feelings, so I know someone else is feeling the same way. Music can serve as a distraction, relation, self...